SHOUT OUT!

Haha jus a quick shout out to my dearies!


Fanghan : Miss you lots!


Claudia : Cheer up girl! Wheres the bubbly girl I knew? =)


Fanglin : Something is bothering u, but I dont know what. But whatever it is, get through it with a smile! =)


Yvonne : Get well soon! =)


Leo : Cya back in sg soon bro

1 more month? =)

Full of thoughts..

1 whole day at home, and I've thought through many things...trying to find a reason for all that's happening...




One thing struck me.


In life, things are never 'forever'.


Nothing stays 'forever'


Even friendships and relationships.


Especially so for friendships.


People always use the term 'Friends Forever'


True, but what kind of friends?


You may start off as best friends, but with the passage of time, this friendship will fade.


With the entry of new friends, new surroundings, this friendship will weaken over time.


From best friends, the bond will fade into good friends, friends, and maybe even acquaintances.


Isn't that always the case?


Just look back, at the bunch of friends you hung out with in secondary school.


The people you could always be found with.


Now, after entering jc, look back again.


Friends you constantly hung out with in the past, are replaced with new friends you met in jc.


Occasionally, you may still look them out, go out for a meal, but it isn't the same as before.


The same thing will happen when we enter uni, or rather, as we progress into each new phase of our lives.


Yes, will my friends now ever be the same as before?


I'll wish for everything to remain the same as when we were in school, but the rational part of me is constantly reminding me that things happen, and people change.

All of them seems plagued by unhappiness. Why is that so?

Some of them are unhappy with work, some facing f/s and r/s problems, even some down with sickness.

But there are also some who are unhappy, but I dont know why.

Actually, of everyone, I think only leo hasnt changed abit?

The ever carefree and happy leo. Whatever happened to the rest of us?

Another weekend at home...

Yea..no one to go out with...looks like i'm spending another day at home...with my books..=(
sad life

Do you know...

Do you know...how much I miss studying?


Do you know...how much I miss SR?


Do you know...how much I miss consultations?


Do you know...how much I miss my friends?


Do you know...how much I miss my dearest friends?




Do you know...how much I miss you?


Your constantly in my thoughts...


Do you know that too?

Tuition!

Haha any JC students looking for tuition?

Specifically for GP..

Been thinking about tutoring for awhile..

I'll probably go help RA consult his students on saturdays after getting my A levels..

Haven discussed with him regarding that..

But I still have weekdays free!

Accepting students wanting GP tuition, I could tutor other subjects too, but focusing on GP now.

Currently only planning to tutor JC students...or at most upper secondary students.

Contact me for more details...

I walk a lonely road...

2 years of lonely road actually..

Afterall, I'm not gonna make friends in the office...

Office is definitely the worst place to find friends..the least ideal place actually


Never know when the 'friends' u make will fuck u upside down...


Just have to get used to it I guess..

I will walk the 2 years alone...but after that I'll go back to the main pathway where everyone is again.

Tomorrow going back to school alone..

Thinking of going NTU talk alone..but going alone is so weird.

Sumore it's valentine's day..so nvm bah. Not going le..

It will take some getting used to...but I guess I'll get used to it somehow.

Afterall, I have 2 years of being alone, and I believe I'm already at the bottom..can't go any lower.

The most I'll just lose some more friends?

Guess I could accept that outcome..

Afterall, I'm too tired to try to mend something that's broken.

Maybe you could even say..I don't want to mend it.

I rather it stay broken.


Everything can be mended with time, except those i wish to stay broken

Don't trust me?

Fuck it.

Don't pass me work if you don't trust me with it.

If I did the work, I'll bear whatever mistakes I made.

I dont need you to fucking check through to find if I made any mistakes.

Fuck off.

Imagine spending effort on the work, only to have someone else checking through it just caused he doesn't trust you.


Fuck you man

1 month soldier

And 23 more months in the fuck hole.

It's take a day at a time now...

Every passing day is another day gone.

Read this in 8 days this week...


Libra

You deserve a break, and even though many people could be generating a pessimistic atmosphere, you may live by hope.


This month horoscope readings are spot on..


Too many problems this month, be it ns or personal life...

I've pretty much tossed my social life away..should I try to get it back?


Maybe some things in life are worth chasing back.

But for some other things I'm almost fucked past caring

Especially it it's a one-sided affair.

I aint normal

First up..

Sorry to people who been trying to talk to me one way or the other..

I know I've been quite hostile and unfriendly these days...

No, it's not that your over sensitive. it's just that I'm not myself these days...

Still trying to find the reason for my...unhappiness if you wanna call it..

Though that isn't the perfect description for what I'm feeling...but I can't find a better word yet.

Don't take it to heart. There's no malice intended in my behavior...but I just can't keep myself from being irritable. Not now at least...


Spent the weekend hiding at home...it feels wrong, in being kinda anti-social...

But then again, I felt relieved that I don't have to face anyone...

It's a perplexing feeling, the feeling of anguish, but relief.

Could say it's the first time I felt this way..

Barely touched my phone this week...only smsing afew people..

Actually I could count how many people I smsed these days..

Let's see...

fanghan

claudia

fanglin

RA

Yea that's about all I guess?


I think it would continue to dwindle as the weeks pass..


I guess I won't be going out too often too?

Just don't feel like hanging out...home's the best place for me now I guess..

At least until I figure out what's bothering me..

Maybe I should lock out my blog too...

Dead tired

Very long never blog alr..

All coz of 1 simple reason - Dead tired.

Yea..hardly came online this week..

Been OTing everyday this week in preparation for board...

Haha by the time I was home, I'm too tired to head for my comp again..

Sumore I still have my breaking dawn to finish!

Lol..twilight is addictive I tell you...


Anyway...still adapting to working life I think.

Because I'm still tired after coming home from work everyday.


I haven even been smsing much to anyone else, including my best friends.

Ok..mayb theres only 1 exception to that..

I think soon, I'll also stop contacting them...


Today board was quite intimidating actually..

Got intimidated by the colonels and generals in the room..

Dazzled by the many stars on the shoulders..


Anyway, I dont know if it's NS, but I'm tired almost everyday now.

And the thought of having less friends seems very attractive now..

Afterall, less friends = less time needed to spend with them