What do I do now??

Physics SUCKS


Plain and simple...

I finished the paper in like..30mins? with 5 pages of blank..lets see thats worth about....


50 marks??


Yea not bad for a paper woth 80 marks and theres 50 marks of blanks...

Haiz felt so bad during the exam..

Miss Lim and Mr Hon were all there, walking around. and there they see me...

sleeping on the table...fiddling with my GC.

I know they both expect higher of me....but I just couldn't match their expectations...

So now, Im sitting in front of my comp, and typing away....

Haiz..I think this is the most stressful period of my 18 years of existence yet??

and it's not even the A's or the prelims...just a mid year.

But as I sat through the papers, I felt more and more stressed and afraid. There are so many IFS now....

What if I fail the A's?

What if I fail to make it to uni?

What if I retain?


ifs, ifs and more ifs....

I guess I wasn't even in a quarter of this stress during the O's...

then again, people didn't have high expectations of me during that period...

My mother didn't expect me to study in a JC,

my tutors didn't expect me to do superb for O's,( even though they didn't expect me to do badly either)

my friends were another bunch of super slackers( nt tt i didn't enjoy their company)


Coming bck now..

My mother now expect me to be able to enter a local uni,

my tutors have expectations for me to do well,

my friends that I have now are all a hardworking bunch, each with their goals in mind( and I really appreciate the C&C they shown me)


Guess it's pretty obvious that the expectations are so much higher?

Worst is, I think I just lost my motivation to study...

Think as I might, I can't think of a reason as to why do I have to study...

The topic of entering a uni with my desirable course keeps popping into my mind, but I just cannot seem to prioritize it high enough to keep me going....

Could someone help me find back the drive to succeed??

Maybe it's because of all the problems that has been adding to my stress...

r/s problems, family problems, health problems. etc etc etc...

Haiz...what do I do now?

I guess the only thing left to do now, is to wait and see?


Hopefully time will reveal what life has in store for me...

But till then, I guess I'm gonna have to start picking up the pieces and find some motivation to really push me all the way to the A's....


I guess I'm gonna take a break from studying and school today, and just enjoy the day...maybe it could help relieve some of the built up stress....I know some of u will b saying that I'm procrastinating...but if u know me well enough, then I guess u will know that I always do certain things coz I feel that it could really help. So yea..

Another 2 papers down

What a sucky day...

computing and maths p1 both went down today, but in totally different ways....

Computing went down fairly smoothly, lost mayb 20 marks?? Not too bad I guess.

Maths is a total different story.

Felt despair LOL


Not that I couldn't do, but theres just this feeling I can't describe....


A feeling that make u feel...i don't know how to express it....


I could do the questions, as in scribble some workings out, and even get an answer.

But all the answers felt wrong....

Maybe its lack of confidence??


Oh well...tomorrow is physics p3. So gonna fail it until I have really no expectation or motivation to study for it...

2 papers down!!!~~

HAHA!!

Quite happy today!!

Firstly, GP mid years!!!


Haha what to say....

Bittersweet feelings I guess...

Bitter cause I didn't have time to finish all the arguments I wanted to. But at least I presented the most salient ones...thats a comforting thought.

From now on, must write faster to squeeze in all the content!! Must get a 25/35 for content!!!


Lucky paper 2 was a breeze. Ok, maybe not really a breeze, but still managable. Abit of smoking in AQ though. Wasn't as direct as I would like to be.


Oh I was trying out a new writing method today for mid years. I tried making arguments that are all interlinked. Like Arg1 is linked to Arg2 because of blah blah blah etc etc.

Also made use to parenthesis to qualify my points.


First time trying out these stuff. Hopefully it will pay off...


Next up was econs. The first DRQ is quite a goner lol

2nd DRQ was not so bad...essay totally rocks. Miss May Koh hint was totally spot on!!


haha next paper in 1 week time...so gonna slack tonite first...Ciao!!!

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Quick Update

Haven been here for quite a long time =S




Mid years are fast approaching..2 more days.




Luckily I only have GP and Econs on Tuesday..









I guess I have been blessed. Having a 6 day study break to study for my H2 subjects



But now I'm almost into panic mode already...really doubt that I could finish revision for econs.




But I guess the pressure is really on GP. I know theres nothing much I can do now, but to review in my head the skills and content. Maybe some luck too? But, I guess I am putting alot of pressure on myself to score well for GP. But like what RA mentioned. Aim HIGHER
Always aim higher.




So thats what I do.






Maybe thats where the pressure is coming from too- Expectations.




The expectation I have of myself, the expectations of my tutors, parents etc etc. I guess they all contribute to a little part to this pressure.



You may all be asking...why GP of all subjects?



Well priorities change. I really wanna go LAW/ FASS now...and GP is one of the much needed grades for entry to these faculties...especially LAW...




I read this quote in a article today...





Pressure is the privilege of champions.






Okok..maybe champion is not the right word to use in this context. But its a quote right? I can't change it as I please lol!



But ya, I find this so true. So if you wanna be the best, learn to live with it.




anyway...first thing to becoming the best....set targets...



So lo and behold, my targets for mid years!!




GP B




ECONS D




MATHS C




COMPUTING B




PHYSICS E






AIM HIGH!!





Good Luck to every1 for these mid years!!





Its the journey that matters, the end result is just a bonus if u did well~






**every small gesture u do no matter how small brightens up my however bad day